Are you wondering why I’m up writing a blog post in the middle of the night? I couldn’t sleep. Not a common problem for me actually. I usually don’t have too much trouble falling asleep or staying asleep. But tonight there was much on my mind that I could not relax and rest. So what else was there to do but get up and try to clear some of the troublesome thoughts from my mind?
I came to the computer to check emails and such and found a scripture from a friend. Psalm 37. Comforting words. Some of the verses that spoke most gently to me were verses 4-5: “Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.” Delight. The word seems to even taste good as it passes from my lips. I realize that I must begin to delight in the LORD more than I have been recently. Commit. To put in the charge of. My way must be committed to the LORD…not to myself! Trust. The firm belief in the reliability of another. If our LORD is not reliable, then we have no hope.
Delight. Commit. Trust. And THEN God will give the desires of our heart and cause our prayers to be answered. He wants to bless me! He really does! But there are these things that I must do first.
As I feel my eyelids begin to get heavy, I read another verse. The seventh. “Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass.” The words that get my attention here are rest…wait…and fret not. Rest. So often I am still. I am quiet. But I am not resting. Wait. It’s so hard to be patient and wait on the LORD. I want to see my prayers answered NOW! But it may not be the right time yet in God’s eyes. And fret not. Fret means “to gnaw, chafe, wear away, to irritate or be irritated”. I hate to wear shoes that rub blisters or some kind of clothing that is too tight. It keeps my mind on whatever it is that’s hurting. Sometimes things and situations irritate me just as bad or worse than a blister from an ill fitting shoe! But God says in this verse that I should rest IN HIM and wait patiently FOR HIM and in doing so to fret NOT.
Why is it that I get so bent out of shape over things that I have no control over? I think tonight that I will soon be able to lie down and sleep. I believe if I can delight…in the LORD….commit….my way unto the LORD….trust…in HIM…rest…in the LORD…and wait patiently for HIM…that I will be more likely to be able to relax and FRET NOT !
Thank you LORD for reminding me yet again tonight that You ..not me…are the One that is in charge and the One that can change the hearts of men!