Today is my and my husband's thirty-fifth wedding anniversary! Thirty-five years ago ... only six days shy of my twentieth birthday.... I married my husband in a small, rural Baptist church in north Mississippi with only our parents and the preacher and his wife in attendance. We wanted a small wedding for many reasons. One was that my husband didn't think he could stand up in front of a crowd, another was that I didn't have the money for a fancy wedding, and another was that my Mama had passed away three years earlier and I really had no idea how to even plan a wedding on my own! But here we are....three and a half decades later....still happily married. I've been blessed to have a Christian husband who has taken good care of me all of these years. But even so, it's not him who is the Love of my lifetime because I found that in the person of Jesus Christ.
I was raised in a good Christian home and was active in church all of my life. As a young person I was morally good and tried to obey all the rules of those in authority over me. Looking back I think most of that was because of the personality I was born with....I was basically too shy and scared to try to do anything very bad! But even with all the "goodness" that others could see in me I was still restless and searching for "something".....I didn't know what.
During my teenage years I counseled with my pastor and my youth leader about the unrest in my spirit. Each time they would in some way or another assure me that they I was all right in God's eyes. But they couldn't see all the bad things in my heart. I could not lay my head on my pillow at night and relax, terrified that I might die in my sleep, or be in some sort of accident, and maybe....just maybe.....not be ready to face eternity.
In 1977 the Lord brought a new pastor to the little Baptist church where we were married and attended church. Through the preaching and teaching of this new preacher the Lord brought conviction to my heart with the realization that I had never really trusted what God had done to be sufficient to save me. I had always subconsciously thought I was "good enough" in my ownself to get to Heaven.....not remembering the Scripture in Isaiah 64: 6 that says, "But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags." When I finally saw....through the eyes of faith....that my only hope was through Jesus Christ and what HE did for me on the cross, then I came to Him and found the Love of My Lifetime! I have never been the same since that night. I hope that you ,too, have found the Love of Your Lifetime through salvation in Christ. If not, I pray that you will soon.
"The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with loving kindness have I drawn thee." Jeremiah 31: 3
May God bless you....